In all honesty, I don't know what I'm going to do about CoNZealand.

I never bought an Attending Membership, because I figured I'd wait to do that until I had some certainty I'd be able to, you know, attend, but I filled out the Program Form at the request of one of the committeemembers, whom I've known for a while.

Right now I'm deeply uncertain about paying hundreds of dollars for Attending Membership when there's nothing to actually attend. But I haven't actually told them "thanks but no thanks" yet.